Saturday, January 22, 2011

In Memory of My Grandfather

Tragedy. It comes without notice, but it leaves a heavy and everlasting mark on you and everyone close to you.

Last evening my grandfather (or as I called him "Pa") died unexpectedly, and while I don't want to bum anyone out, I thought I would dedicate this post to him, as he was always my cheerleader when it come to blogging and reading and my schooling.

My grandfather was always there for me when I was little and over time he become one of my role models. He was brave, smart, one of the nicest guys in the world. I spent more time with him when I was little than I probably did with my parents combined, and I was always close to him. He was my supporter through thick and then; he was always so proud of me. He loved what I do with Lauren's Crammed Bookshelf; he loved how much I valued my school work; he was always there for me, always rooting me for to do my best, and even if I didn't succeed, he was there to tell I did a good job, and that he was still proud.

If you told me last week that I would be facing this, feeling so sad and angry at the world for taking him away too soon, I would have never believed it. I truly thought he would be around for ever; he would be there at my high school graduation at my college one as well, crying because he was so proud of his "little girl".

I'm going to miss him so much I can't even explain it in words, though I'm going to grow stronger because of it. I'm not going to mad at the world, instead I'm going to value the time I got to spend with him, and I'm going to tell my children someday (if I have them) how amazing their great-grandfather was and how he was taken away too soon.

But until then, do me a favor, go hug and tell the people you love how much you love them. You never know when it will be too late to do so; I certainly didn't.

Also, I'll probably not be around the blogging world for the next few days, so please excuse me for that. I will get back to you all as soon as I'm ready to.

Talk to you all soon,

Lauren

19 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry, and I'll be thinking about you. I know exactly what you're going through. My papaw died the day after Christmas...the first year I didn't go home for the holidays because I was with my fiancee's family. So I'm the only member of my family that didn't get to spend that last day with him.

    You have your memories of him, and you'll be able to treasure those for the rest of your life! I hope you and your family make it through the next few days, I'll be praying for ya!

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  2. Lauren I'm so sorry! You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I'm sending a big hug your way! How wonderful that you have these memories to share-your post is beautiful.

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  3. I am really sorry for your loss. I know how much it hurts to loose someone you love and is so close to you. My grandpa was the exact same way with my reading as yours was with your reading. My grandpa used to take me book shopping every time I saw him always listening to what I had to say even though he didn't know that much about the book world. Again I am very sorry and I know he is somewhere watching over you still smiling over how very proud of you he is.

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  4. I'm sorry Lauren. and I'm glad you'll be looking at the happy memorys you had with him[: and being lucky you got to share part of your life with him and part of his with you. Thanks for sharing. We all understand that you wont be post for a little while. you're in my prayers. [:
    ~Amber.

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  5. ***hugs*** so sorry to hear your sad news Lauren :( what a very beautiful post . I'm sure he would have been so proud to read that. Love and hugs. Karen x

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  6. So sorry to hear of your loss Lauren. It's always difficult when loved ones pass- I had a tough fall regarding family deaths so I definitely know what you're going through.

    It's amazing to hear that your Pa was a huge advocate for you blogging! Hopefully knowing that he loved it will encourage you to keep pushing forward and keep doing the incredible work you do here on your blog.

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  7. I am so sorry to hear about your loss! There isn't much people can say but it was awfully sweet and thoughtful of you to tell us about your "Pa."

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  8. Lauren, I'm so sorry about your grandfather. You and your family are in my thoughts. Continue on doing a good job blogging cos that's how you'll honor your grandfather. :)

    Steph

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  9. I'm so sorry to hear this, Lauren!
    *hugs*

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  10. :( my condolences. I'm sad you lost him but I'm happy you had such an awesome grandpa

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  12. I completely understand how you are feeling right now. My grandmother passed away about a month ago. It was one of the hardest times in my life. I'm so sorry for your loss. May God be with you and strengthen you.

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  13. :-( I'm sorry about your grandfather Lauren, your in our thoughts. *hugs*

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  14. Really sorry to hear about your grandfather, Lauren. What a lovely post though, and a lovely way to remember him.

    See you soon. *hugs*

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  15. I'm so sorry for your loss, but you're right. You will grow stronger, but you have to remember it takes time. I lost my grandfather over 10 years ago and I still miss him so much. They're always with us, we just have to remind ourselves.

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  16. I don't know how I missed this post...I am so sorry for your loss. There aren't really words to make everything better, but cherish the memories you had with him always.

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